Fiction

Justice's Signature Ballad: A Short Story

The sun had started to dawn in the East. Its youthful rays spread across the wide swath of the barren plains and dusty dunes. The streams of light baked the ground underfoot into fine silica that seemed to flow every which way, with the gentle breeze of the winds. Out of the sands, sun-baked stones seemed to pierce from underneath the surface creating the rugged terrain laid bare before the world. The wasteland of dust seemed endless in its appearance from one horizon to another. The ground gave off emanations of heat only visible in the distance. In the scorched landscape, only the dust and hard rock existed; alone in a soundless world of their own. For this wasteland of evermore expansion, with its looming sun and its everlasting gaze; will continue long after the feuds of man and their ambitions have faded into the dust. 

Out of the confines of the dust arose a lone rider on the back of a weary mare. The solitary man steered the mare nonchalantly forward, staring off into the expanse, looking for something. The rays of the sun seemed to sear the man’s skin a deep red, but this did not bother his search. He scanned the horizon constantly; vigilant of anything that would justify his venture into this wasteland, while his frail mare lugged him continually forward. The wind scooped up pockets of loose silica and tossed the dust up into the man’s face. He could feel it, those loose particles floating around him and landing softly upon the skin. A humbling of the spirit, a return of man to the place for which he once sprung. The breeze carried a coarse grit that would scrap man of his worldly vestiges, and at once reveal what eternally lay at his heart. Those deep tendrils of that original sin pierce deep into the once pure heart, leaving only a fallible deluded creature spawned in sin to surely one day die. The revelatory nature of man’s eternal destiny; the unconscious march toward his birthplace that follows all men. An ever-present cradle and grave preordained in man’s destiny. 

The mark of his authority lay upon his hip, along with his Colt Single Action revolver that hung in his holster on his dominant side. The mark, carried by many a man in his profession, had taken him across the territories in pursuit of those boundless individuals yet tamed by the ever-present march of civilization. The weapon: a ubiquitous tool for those wandering the territories. Though, the bore of this revolver had not seen more than a hundred slugs go down its narrow passage, nor did the weapon's finish see any real wear. Almost untested, the forged metal lines had not seen the true possibility of wear that comes with an experienced ranger. 

The eternal wanderer himself reeked a foul odor of dried sweat from the arduous journey. His greasy hair maintained a matted condition with several knots, and the beard upon his face had grown wild. His linen clothes had darkened from the sweat and dust. Gone were the pomp and proper, and in its place, man had revealed himself to the emptiness of the open plane. The baseness of man on display. 

He had descended into the empty planes on the promise of profit. A bounty of somewhat high acclaim and every more worldly currency. He had appeared out of the desert, what felt like years ago at this point, to be greeted by a sign inscribed with the title “Goodsprings.” A modest plot of land with a few interspersed rickety wooden shacks. The pine siding on each of the buildings had started peeling itself off the frames of the houses, as the shafts of the nail shanks had slowly been eroded by rust. The dust had coated the windows in a thin film; obscuring the interior of each building from the rider as he passed. 

The hollow echo of silence bounded across the township. He roamed in silence until he came upon the town’s steeple and heard the faint murmuring of hymns. He stood at the base of the steps of the white Chapel. He did not dare to step inside the pure building, for he feared he would be struck down by some ethereal force for his tainted heart. 

As he waited for the session to end, he took long drags on a rustic cigarette he had just lit. The smoke bellowed out, and ash slowly bled from the tip while leaning against a baluster at the bottom of the stairs. The hymns stopped, the doors opened, and a flood poured out from the conclave. The passing people side-eyed him but did not bother to speak to the foreign one. As they shuffled out, the wanderer proceeded to call out to the amorphous blob, asking for the town's sheriff. A disheveled wrinkled old timer separated from the mass to meet face-to-face with the wanderer. 

“What can I do for you?” he croaked with slight apprehension. 

“Have you seen this Man?” He held out a folded poster with a lightly sketched picture of a man. The sketch of another wanderer, just as devoid as the last. The ghostly image of a face, skin clinging to the bone, of eyes sunken into the skull. A gaunt illustration of somewhat questionable validity, to only yield the basest of assumptions from these exaggerated features. 

“I ain’t ever seen a man like this,” he had stopped for a second. “A few nights ago though, someone whipped the shit out of old Austin over a hand of blackjack. He rode off into the night before anyone had the balls to try to catch him.”

“Do you know which way he went?” the loner bellowed out under the taste of smoke.

The old timer waved for the blunt youth to follow. As the two walked slowly across town, he leveraged a question into the silence, “What’s your name?”

“What does it matter?” he blurted out with a slight smile. 

“I guess it doesn’t matter much, but it would make things go easier…let's stop at my house for a drink; you look thirsty.” They had stopped in front of a two-story shack with a precarious hanging balcony. The lacquer paint had eroded, exposing the veins of the wooden siding. The sheriff ran behind the building to a lowly well with the loner’s leather water bladder. He had returned with two filled bladders, along with a hunk of hard tack. He broke the giant piece of hard tack in half and handed him one piece along with his water bladder. 

“Thank you…I’m sorry. I guess when you're on the road forever, you forget the normalities. The name is Judas.” He grasped the leather bladder with one weathered hand and poured the cloudy water onto his face. A baptism in hospitality, for which the dust of the desert evermore wiped from man, but never fully erased. The looming event hung above his head, every present and never forgotten. The dust awaits all, born out of the first sin, and he could not forget his place concerning the needed action of justice and the end where true judgment is cast. 

“It’s all right, living in this world makes a person think twice about everything. I mean who the hell left you with a name like Judas?” He smiled at the thought, as they both chewed on their pieces of hardtack.

“I think my parents believed I was destined for infamy or some sort of fame,” he chuckled as the aged man smiled. The sheriff waited a second then responded, “What did this fella do anyway.”

“John Martin? He tried robbing a bank back in Oklahoma, but things didn’t go to plan. He ended up shooting dead two bank tellers when they got in his way. He walked away with nothing.”

“Christ, something is wrong with people,” the sheriff remarked honestly. The statement hung in the air for the time being. They sat for a few minutes taking swigs from their leather water bladders when a young deputy approached and exchanged a few quiet words with the sheriff. The sheriff proceeded to point the loner back on a road into the desert, and with that, he departed into the scorched wasteland.

Over time, the remembrance of water heightened thirst and the continual wandering become a purposeless stumble. As the heart gave way to doubt, Judas spotted a solitary shack over the horizon. The denigrated shack was made from scraps of spare lumber and faced outward to the downtrodden road. It leaned slightly with the warp of the wooden frame as the wood’s moisture had been deprived by the desert. The sunken windows, covered in a residual layer of dust, made a lifeless structure of the solitary building.

Judas plodded down the road to the front of the shack and dismounted his mare by the narrow path up to the house. Once he had dismounted, he peered down into a shallow ditch by the entrance to the path. There lay two lifeless bodies in the cradle of each other's arms; one of an older man wearing coveralls with a white undershirt and the other, a young brunette woman in a cloth dress. A bullet for each of them; that was their prize for living. The loner could not feel anything; only the hardening of his heart, for which he could only look on in slight disturbance at the display. They died in each other’s arms, only to be consumed by the dust. 

He trod closer to the house as the dust-filled door was thrown open and a familiar bald man walked out. The sketch of the pale, white man was somewhat accurate as Judas had started to observe his many distinctive features. The eyes reflected a hollowness, a feature that Judas could not take his own eyes away from. A human without reservation, like a dog with rabies. 

“Watcha want boy?” he grumbled under his unkempt beard. He wore his revolver openly on the front of his torso for convenient reach, but he did not seem phased by the randomness of the encounter.

“Are you John Martin?” Judas spoke as the man inched his hand closer to his weapon. With danger present, Judas moved his hand onto the handle of his revolver but he did not draw. “ I want to bring you in alive.” He added into the silence of the confrontation, as they stared at each other over the drumming of the heart. 

“Ain’t going. Why keep on living if you can’t do what you want,” he mumbled slightly. For a moment, there were two poised against each other, and then there was one. Two shots rang out from both guns, but only one shot rang true. Judas, seeing that his adversary lay upon the wooden boards, shakingly lowered his weapon and reholstered it. He stumbled over to the corpse to find a piece of lead lodged below his right eye socket, devastating the structure of his face. After seeing his creation, Judas could not but sit on the steps to the doorway. Nausea slowly crept into his knees and his arms continually sat heavily upon his knees. He could only sit and think about what he left home for. He finally lifted himself to drag the body of the villain to his horse. As Judas strapped him to the butt of his horse, he peered into the ditch once more. He knew then why he left home. Once more, he retreated back into the desert as his nerves slowly began to settle and his eyes became a little dimmer. 

The End

The Final Word (Fiction)

The final word flows off the line without the faintest clue of finality. The climax is but a goddamn farse of dribble, fed to the reader with the least amount of nutrition possible. I reread the last paragraph with my eyes closely following along, but there is nothing left to dissect, no clever built-up twists, no magnificent moments of regal splendor; just the utter emptiness. I flipped a few pages forward, but it was empty of any material pertaining to the story: almost as if that were it. I, perched upon my chair in my study, was alone with nothing but the vague aspirations of wanting more than what was given. 

Against all reason, against all moments of effort and dedication, our journey was but a fantasy; born out of the mind of the insane. All of the well-placed clues, all of the mindless banter about the crystal, and in the end, it was all for nothing. I stared off into the musty air, with these insatiable desires of more. The emptiness of the house began to dawn on me again for the first time in a week. I could not escape from it; that feeling of all-encompassing absence. A sudden shot went through my body like a fire ignited within my gut. I tossed the sorry paperback piece across the room at the shaky bookshelf, and buried my face within the palms of my hands. Within the solitary darkness, I was no one and nowhere; free of the present to fly without stress or fear of my current situation. That lowly escape from reality, to become without disturbances of the soul, felt divine in the manifestation of the unconscious wants. Once the snap happened though, I was back in the solitary room; alone without a goddamn hand to grasp or a person to call. Alone in a world without reason to continue, and all I could do was bury myself in the books of a by-gone era.  

I rose from the chair to pace about the dimly lit room; for I could not escape those feelings, those desires that I had avoided to remain within some level of ignorance. I walked over to the window next to my desk to uncover it from its hiding place behind the curtains, to reveal the moon bathing in the broth of the abyss above. As I stared out across the empty fields basking in the meager light of the still body in the sky, I could not but wonder at the universality of my situation. To feel those real emotions born out of the strife of experience, is truly human, but how many people truly feel that? Even in the experience of these emotions, I had no real moments to compare these movements of the soul to another. Again alone against a tide of internal strife, for to whom is a man to turn, but escape into another world of distraction? He can run away all he wants across the fields of space and time, but how can a man divorce the flesh from the soul?

The flood walls have fallen now to reveal only the inevitable — that which has been hidden right in front of me. I am continually pacing around the room, procedurally biting each fingernail till the sensitive root of the nail bed lay bare. Around and around I strut across the floor, as if I were on a stage giving a monologue to an imaginary crowd about the virtues of fate. I turn again to pace back and forth, caught in a loop of zemblanity, alone without anything to grasp, leaving only the man to free fall into the abyss. The pace has been set to turn again and again till the eyes of solitude finally take that great sleep under the dirt. Thoughts swirl around and around leaving only confusion; in which the question still remains, is that it? The results of an experiment to sift through the rubble of these emotions, only to reveal pain.

Outside of the manor, the grain sways back in forth with the current of the wind. They move in a trance akin to what the master of their actions model. The recurrence of movement and thought brings men back to the beginning, in which the manor windows were full of lights. Those joyous days of activity, in which we worked by day and dined by night, for the hot blood of youth was channeled into those fields, leaving only the calmer temperament for the evening. Those arduous days of dredging grain — muscles aching and clothes seeping with sweat — but even amongst the hardness of the fields, we were happy to be accompanied by conversation. In the moments away from the monotony, we would sit amongst the razed fields and drink from a bottle of whiskey, glazing over old glories in which time was encased in that golden veneer of idealism. After those long hours in the abundant fields, we huddled back into the manor for the night. Within the still images of my memory, I could see many nights spent with the people I adored. The merriment of good moments overshadows the lesser ones, to crystallize a time in the mind, in which everything was of supposed perfection. 

One by one, men of brotherhood and women of sisterhood vanished like dust in the wind to return to the earth. Who was I to challenge the path God had set out for them, but I still wept for long hours into the night, surrounded by the place with which they once inhabited. When I, alone, stood upon the mound of dust; there was nothing left for me to wonder. I am alone.

The walls of this mortal shell are slowly closing in on this immortal soul, but there is so much left unsaid for me to feel anything close to satisfied. This mound upon which I stand is the summation of the past, for there is no future here. There is nothing else, besides the cold embrace of regret that comes with the past. 

As I pace faster across the uneven floorboards, I feel my age with how nauseous I am becoming. When I finally stop pacing, I find myself in front of the rickety bookshelf behind my chair.  I examine the many titles that lived upon those shelves. I had lived within these worlds for many hours on end, to get a glimpse of those golden days. Like sand within a sieve, those golden moments were fleeting. To find it and lose it all in the same moment —  was that better than to lose it all forever? The questions continue to swirl, and only then does anger seem to catch up with them. The slamming of my foot against the bottom stand of the bookshelf caused the fragile structure to bottom out, sending a cascade of books down upon me. The large tomes were not the worst of the assault though, for the shelf proceeded to land on top of my fragile frame. The weight of those wooden planks carried my frame downward into the pile of books upon the floor. Upon the boards of my office, I am brought to tears by the pain of this experience. The tears slowly flow down my cheeks, only to land upon the tan pages of old novels. There is nothing else but the aftermath of the past. As I stare out from this concave vantage point, all I can think about is...happiness.

“Where can I get that?”